My name is Barb, and I am applying for ibogaine treatment because I am ready to fully reclaim my life, health, and purpose. I am seeking this treatment now because I am emotionally stable, accountable, and prepared for both the experience and long-term integration. I want to live fully, participate meaningfully in society, and influence others toward healing, resilience, and positive growth.

Personal Background

My life has been shaped by profound trauma beginning in childhood. I was sexually abused by my uncle, and when I told the truth, my father confronted him—and was murdered as a result. He was taken from me because he protected me. Years later, my mother chose to turn off her oxygen in the hospital, exhausted from living. I did not just lose my parents—one was taken from me, and the other left. These events left a deep imprint on my nervous system, attachment, and sense of safety during critical developmental years.

At the same time, I became the oldest of three sisters who had just lost their mother. I was unprepared to be a caregiver, protector, and emotional anchor while grieving myself—but I tried. I learned early to suppress my own needs to survive and protect those around me.

As an adult, after my divorce, I entered a narcissistic relationship that became severely physically, emotionally, mentally, and financially abusive. I was beaten with an ax handle and rolled out of a moving truck. This prolonged trauma layered onto an already injured nervous system. Since my divorce, I have struggled with substance use for over twenty years. My drug use was not recreational—it was an attempt to cope with unrelenting trauma, flashbacks, and night terrors that conventional treatments could not resolve.

Despite these challenges, I have continued to function and contribute. I earned my associate’s degree and completed my engineering design education while engaging in therapy and medical treatment. I have consistently chosen growth, responsibility, and learning, even while living with complex PTSD, traumatic brain injury, and substance dependence rooted in trauma.

Why I Am a Strong Candidate for Ibogaine Treatment

I am a strong candidate for ibogaine because my trauma is neurologically embedded and long-standing, and it has persisted despite conventional therapy, medication, and conscious effort. I have insight, accountability, and readiness. What remains is a nervous system locked into survival loops that ibogaine can uniquely address.

I am seeking treatment as a neurological intervention—not a cure or escape—but as an opportunity to reset deeply ingrained trauma patterns and begin sustained, integrated healing. I am emotionally stable, informed, and fully committed to preparation, integration, and aftercare.

I want to move beyond survival into full presence and purpose. I want to contribute meaningfully to my family, work, and community, and influence others toward growth, resilience, and healing. Ibogaine represents an opportunity to address trauma at its root and reclaim my life, and I am prepared to meet that opportunity with responsibility, clarity, and commitment.

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One-Page Scholarship Statement – Ibogaine Treatment
Introduction

My name is Barb, and I am applying for ibogaine treatment because I am ready to fully reclaim my life, health, and purpose. I am seeking this treatment now because I am emotionally stable, accountable, and prepared for both the experience and long-term integration. I want to live fully, participate meaningfully in society, and influence others toward healing, resilience, and positive growth.

Background

My trauma began in childhood. I was sexually abused by my uncle. When I told the truth, my father confronted him and was murdered as a result. He was taken from me because he protected me. Years later, when I was twenty-one, my mother chose to turn off her oxygen in the hospital because she was exhausted from living. I did not simply lose my parents—one was taken from me, and the other left. These events deeply shaped my nervous system, attachment, and sense of safety during critical developmental years.

At the same time, I became the oldest of three sisters who had just lost their mother. I was unprepared to be a caregiver and emotional anchor while grieving myself, but I tried. I learned early to suppress my own needs in order to survive and protect others.

As an adult, after my divorce, I entered a narcissistic relationship that became severely physically, emotionally, mentally, and financially abusive. I was beaten with an ax handle and rolled out of a moving truck. This prolonged trauma compounded the neurological injury already present. Since my divorce, I have struggled with substance use for over twenty years. My drug use was not recreational—it was an attempt to cope with relentless trauma responses, flashbacks, and night terrors that conventional treatment could not resolve.

Despite these challenges, I continued to function and contribute. I earned my associate’s degree and completed my engineering design education while participating in therapy and medical treatment. I have consistently chosen growth, responsibility, and learning, even while living with complex PTSD, traumatic brain injury, and trauma-rooted substance dependence.

Why I Am a Strong Candidate

I am a strong candidate for ibogaine because my trauma and addiction are neurologically embedded and long-standing, and they have persisted despite years of conventional therapy and medication. I have insight, accountability, and readiness. What remains unresolved is a nervous system locked into survival loops that I cannot consciously override.

I am seeking ibogaine as a neurological intervention—not a cure or an escape—but as an opportunity to interrupt deeply ingrained trauma patterns so that recovery, sobriety, and integration can be sustained. I am stable, informed, and fully committed to preparation, integration, and long-term recovery.

I want to move beyond survival into presence and purpose. With effective treatment, I am capable of contributing meaningfully to my family, work, and community, and of influencing others toward healing and resilience. Ibogaine represents a critical opportunity to address trauma at its root, and I am prepared to meet that opportunity with honesty, discipline, and commitment.