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Jessica is determined to end her addiction which has dominated her life for so long. She is currently on Fentanyl with it’s daily dangers of overdose. She holds down a job and is super-responsible in spite of struggling with addiction, and we at Awake hope that we can inspire you to pitch in whatever you can, even if it’s just a couple bucks, and help Jessica save her life.

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I’m reaching out with humility and hope. After struggling with addiction for years and coming to the realization that typical treatments were not working I made the choice to seek other options. Ibogaine sounded like the answer to my problems I was told didn’t exist and I’m so grateful for the opportunity to receive help from Awake to get where I need to get to start my life over. Any contribution, no matter the size, makes a meaningful difference. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kindness and generosity.

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I’ve never really had many people on my team throughout life, always kind of a loner so I just figured out how to do things myself. One of the hardest things for me with this was admitting to myself that I don’t know how to do it, and asking for help. Thankfully Lakshmi and Awake were there to answer when I knocked. Now I cross my fingers and hope for the best! Thank you so much for believing in me and contributing to my anticipated rebirth, I can’t wait to see the world

above K’UN THE RECEPTIVE, EARTH below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER The idea of a turning point arises from the fact that after the dark lines…

above CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER Ch’ien, heaven is above; Chên, movement, is below. The lower trigram Chên is under the…

above KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN below CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN The Creative is tamed by Kên, Keeping Still. this produces great power, a situation in…

above KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER this hexagram is a picture of an open mouth; above and below are firm lines…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD this hexagram consists of four strong lines inside and two weak lines outside. When…

above K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER this hexagram consists of a doubling of the trigram K’an. It is one of the…

above LI THE CLINGING, FIRE below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE this hexagram is another double sign. The trigram Li means “to cling to something,” and…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN The name of the hexagram means “universal,” “general,” and in a figurative sense “to influence,”…

above CHEN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND The strong trigram Chên is above, the weak trigram Sun below. this hexagram is the…

above CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN The power of the dark is ascending. The light retreats to security, so that the…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER above CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN The great lines, that is, the light, strong lines, are powerful. Four light lines have…

above LI THE CLINGING, FIRE below K’UN THE RECEPTIVE, EARTH The hexagram represents the sun rising over the earth. It is therefore the symbol of…

above K’UN THE RECEPTIVE, EARTH below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE Here the sun has sunk under the earth and is therefore darkened. The name of…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE The hexagram represents the laws obtaining within the family. The strong line at the top…

above LI THE CLINGING, FLAME below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE This hexagram is composed of the trigram Li above, i.e., flame, which burns upward, and…

above K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN The hexagram pictures a dangerous abyss lying before us and a steep, inaccessible mountain rising…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER Here the movement goes out of the sphere of danger. The obstacle has been removed,…

above KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE This hexagram represents a decrease of the lower trigram in favor of the upper, because…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER The idea of increase is expressed in the fact that the strong lowest line of…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN This hexagram signifies on the one hand a break-through after a long accumulation of tension,…

above CH’IEN THE CREATIVE, HEAVEN below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND This hexagram indicates a situation in which the principle of darkness, after having been eliminated,…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below K’UN THE RECEPTIVE, EARTH This hexagram is related in form and meaning to Pi, HOLDING TOGETHER (8). In the…

above K’UN THE RECEPTIVE, EARTH below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD The lower trigram, Sun, represents wood, and the upper, K’un, means the earth. Linked…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER The lake is above, water below; the lake is empty, dried up. Exhaustion is expressed…

above K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD Wood is below, water above. The wood goes down into the earth to bring…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE The Chinese character for this hexagram means in its original sense an animal’s pelt, which…

above LI THE CLINGING, FIRE below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD The six lines construct the image of Ting, THE CALDRON; at the bottom are…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER The hexagram Chên represents the eldest son, who seizes rule with energy and power. A…

above KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN The image of this hexagram is the mountain, the youngest son of heaven and earth.…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN This hexagram is made up of Sun (wood, penetration) above, i.e., without, and Kên…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE Above we have Chên, the eldest son, and below, Tui, the youngest daughter. The man…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE Chên is movement; Li is flame, whose attribute is clarity. Clarity within, movement without-this produces…

above LI THE CLINGING, FIRE below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN The mountain, Kên, stands still; above it fire, Li, flames up and does not tarry.…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD Sun is one of the eight doubled trigrams. It is the eldest daughter…

above TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE this hexagram, like sun, is one of the eight formed by doubling of a trigram.…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER Wind blowing over water disperses it, dissolving it into foam and mist. this suggests that…

above K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE A lake occupies a limited space. When more water comes into it, it overflows. Therefore…

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND below TUI THE JOYOUS, LAKE The wind blows over the lake and stirs the surface of the water. Thus visible…

above CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN While in the hexagram Ta Kuo, PREPONDERANCE OF THE GREAT (28), the strong lines preponderate…

above K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE this hexagram is the evolution of T’ai PEACE (11). The transition from confusion to order…

above LI THE CLINGING, FLAME below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER This hexagram indicates a time when the transition from disorder to order is not yet…

I dance with my Mother beneath the blue flame of Her skin silently begging not to be born again, and She laughs, and She sings, and the Die Man rings.

This is a difficult thing to explain, but it kind of reminds me of this observation of subatomic particles, where you cannot determine both WHERE…

Maybe there’s a quickening, a hundredth monkey, a millionth Buddha. Maybe its you, maybe its me…. Who do you say that I am? I am…

​The Polemics, as I lovingly refer to my writings, are intended to be a collection of short articles, art-i-facts, journey notes, diagrams, ecstatic poetry, slights-of-hand with Compass, Square and Pen, written exclusively under the influence of Mind-Soul-Manifesting Agents, secret and sacred. For those not familiar with the word ‘polemic,’ it means ‘WAR,’ and every man is Jack.

The “Transcendental Object at the End of Time” IS SYMBOLIZED BY the ‘J’ and the ‘T’ of ob-J-ec-T itself, ‘J-ec-T,’ ‘TO THROW,’ from ‘jacere,’ composed of the ‘JA’ morpheme OF ‘JA[H]’ + ‘cere,’ meaning ‘PURE.’

Sitting Lotus, butterfly, waiting for God to come. Shaman dancing, rattle, drum. Waves of nausea, body numb. Images of all phenomena gliding by. I emerge into the Sky, sitting, watching, only this.

When I speaks, I does so with this accent on I. Thought to be a stranger, kicking this word down the road, the lost ask where I comes from? I warns them,
to know, they must first let go of their obsession with geography. Having no place to stand, I passes by, overhead.

I too have stormed Heaven. The very moment I realized it was my lock and my psyche, I kicked down the Door and announced myself, but found no one home but me.

The “Eye of God,” as en-V-isioned by the Huichol (Wixaritari) Indians of Mexico. Geometry and V-ibrance, compliments of PEYOTE. Inquire within.

A P-OLE, a CIRCLE, a CROSS.

T​o​ ‘e-X-AL-T,’ from ‘ex-,’ ‘OUT, UPWARD’ + ‘altus,’ ‘HIGH.’ But why?

‘Forbidden’ is a REVERSE BIFURCATION. ‘Bi’ is ‘TWO,’ the etymological foundation of Bi-ology. The Study of Life is the Study of TWO.

In the M-iddle, at the bottom of the ‘U,’ of yo-U, between the ‘M’ and the ‘N’ in the ‘MUN’ of Com-MUN-ion, when and where the ‘I’ is M-i-N-i-M-ised, at the bottom of a c-U-p, a c-U-pel, a cr-U-cible, the Holy Grail.

THIS Etymology of Healing revolves around the Greek name ‘Jason,’ and an enTheogenic and esoteric explanation of why ‘Jason’ means ‘HEALER.’ ‘EnTheogenic,’ meaning, ‘GENERATING-THE-DIVINE-WITHIN,’ ‘esoteric,’ meaning, ‘SECRET.’